September by Chris Daughtry, Carmel Apple Pops, the crunch of those golden fall leaves, football on Friday nights, Cross Country meets on Saturday mornings, Soccer games on Saturday afternoons, apple orchards, pumpkin spice lattes, late nights with friends, sitting out on the roof watching the cars drive by, the warms of a hoodie, Notre Dame games, the Golden Dome, Daddy-Daughter Football game, watching the Notre Dame marching band bring the team to the stadium, smores, bonfires, running with a hat and jacket, early morning 5Ks, the Fort-4-Fitness, my first half marathon, warm apple cider, rake and run, fall activities at Indiana Tech, meteor showers, late nights, early mornings, hot chocolate, marching band, hanging out at Bellevue’s major intersection watching cars go by while enjoying a slushie, deep talks, the change of the season, cooler temperatures, jean weather, the smell of PINK body spray.
When the temperature begins to cool, even for a day or two, and it feels like fall, these are the strong memories that flash through my mind. So many good times with friends and family; whether it was pre-college, or college time. It’s amazing that through all of the changes, the ups and downs, the points I was hurting the most, that these memories would be seared into my mind, forever standing for what I love about fall. You know how there are those everyday memories, that each time you recall them, they become more and more fuzzy? Well these memories are so strong that I feel transported back in time. These memories are alive, and whenever I come across them I feel like I am back in the past, enjoying my Saturday cross country meet, or running with my friends.
Life is a lot different. I couldn’t even begin to describe how incredibly different it is now, but that’s not a bad thing. Three years ago I was hovering between 155-160 and running all over the place. I was in my final year of college, trying desperately to finish school strong while dealing with heart break. There were definitely a lot of pros in that time, but there were some significant cons. Fast forward to current time. I am sitting at 205 pounds, not exercising at all (that part is changing!) and happily married to my best friend. If I had the choice to be healthy, but without my husband or overweight and with him, I’d choose the latter without hesitation. I am working towards being healthy, and my husband is working on it too. I love him more each day, even if I’m upset with him sometimes. He’s human; he’s not the one who is supposed to be perfect.
We have made a decision to both get healthy before we have children. So what’s that look like? For both of us, we will lose 50+ pounds. It’s my hope that this can be achieved in the next year, but it may take a little longer. I cannot be so unhealthy with children; they deserve better. Likewise, I want my husband to be around for our kids. I want him to be able to play and have fun with them. I am excited for this, but nervous as well. We needto succeed, but the question is how long will it take? I want to be a mother, I want to have children and raise them, to love them. I am so tired of being told not to rush into things. It’s not like I woke up as decided to have kids overnight, it’s not like this feeling started when everyone started announcing they were expecting. It has been almost a year. Just because I haven’t been vocal for the whole past year doesn’t mean it hasn’t been on my mind.
Karri over at Babe Before Baby has been having amazing results with the 21 Day Fix. A couple weeks ago I saw that she had a link to fill out for health help. I took the plunge and submitted my name and info. A few days later she contacted me about talking about the inquiry. I’m happy to say she gave enough good information because I now have my 21 Day Fix package at home! Since the hubs and I are going on vacation on Friday, I decided that we would start on Sunday, August 3rd. For now, I will just use the workout DVDs while waiting for Friday to get here. I started yesterday with the cardio video. Holy cow! Even though it was only 30 minutes it totally kicked my butt. I am ridiculously sore today. The thing that I really liked about the video was that it wasn’t about speed, but more about form. Autumn was way better in terms of an encouraging instructor than other video instructors I’ve used before. We will see how the next few days go, but I expect to be sore when we leave on Friday. Additionally, I expect to lose a pound or so this week, but will probably gain it back over the course of next week’s vacation. I am not going to stress too much about perfect eating next week because all of our meals will obviously be out. I will try to make the majority of my breakfasts a healthy one.
So here is to a great, healthy week this week! Tell me what you’re doing to be healthier this week!!
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